Hard work, hard results

Just yesterday I wrote about my big activity class that I had did last week at my school. My feelings about the class were that it was a major improvement over the last activity class I had made, and that I had really done a good job. I wasn't perfect and I could see areas where I could do better, but overall I felt very happy about the situation. My only concern was how did the people at work feel about it? Today I got the answer.

The word I got from others at work today was that while there was improvement from the last event, there were still many things they felt I had not done as well as I could've. There was even a mention that there was confusion over my choices of films for the night. We then went over what they felt I didn't do well and what I should do to improve in this and all the classes. This was the second meeting like this for me this week, and both were difficult as they were very straight forward and focused on mistakes mostly, and not the good points of my work.

The sad thing about it is I wish I could show everyone how hard I work. I spent so much time and effort on that event, and all my classes. Yet I seem to be unable to do that. With the new school year coming up, and some new helpful tips I've received, I'm hoping to turn things around fairly quickly. But still, It's always sad for me to see myself make mistakes, even though we all make them.

Lately to cheer myself up from the disappointments, I've been relaxing at home playing lots of video games. Many nights its really nice to come home and just lie back and turn on a quick game to rest and get my mind off of things. I'm also starting to watch some of the backlogged anime I have on DVD. Its nice to finally get to it, as its both enjoyable and helpful to me with my Japanese studying. This weekend I even plan on going to a good old Japanese style party with some friends, and maybe afterwords go see "Dragonball" at the theaters. There's a lot to smile about even with the disappointment. And soon Spring will be here, and with it things will be even better! I can't wait for cherry blossom season to begin!